Piece of Your Heart
This week I made the hard decision to put my book on hold. I haven't written about my novel on here much, so I'll give you a brief overview of my story before I share what I learned this week.
Most of my life growing up, I had no idea what I wanted to be, and I didn't really care. Until that is, God decided to show me what He wanted for me.
I was still in High school when He inspired me to write a book. I had no idea what I was doing, and to be honest, I hated English and Grammar with a passion.
But God had other plans, and now, 41/2 years later, I'm a published writer. I have a blog, subscribers, I've guest posted. And that book, though it's still in rough form, unedited, has never been read by anyone but a couple family members, and is nowhere near being published, it's the best thing that ever happened to me. Because without it, I wouldn't be a writer.
Now I've come to the decision to put the book aside temporarily. I have other projects, (this blog, my freelancing, and other short fiction works), that I have felt the Lord leading me to do first. Plus, I was advised years ago by a well-known author that I should never start my career with a book. It's a little delayed, but I'm taking his advice now, and laying it aside.
Not that it will be there forever. I know many people have laid their project aside and not touched it for years, even decades. I won't. I know I won't for one reason, the one realization I had when I made the decision to close the document and open another.
That book is a part of me. It's etched inside me. It's a piece of my heart. For the longest time, it was a project, a hobby, something I liked, something I made. It was just a book, or so I thought. It's only now that I've put it down that I've realized just what that book means to me. I've realized that if I had never been given this book, I would be a completely different person.
This book changed my life. Through it, I have grown up. Because of it, I have become something, and I have found who I am. Through it I have formed a relationship with God that is ten times stronger than it was before He gave it to me.
And the greatest part is, He knew that the whole time. That's why He gave it to me.
We are writing our works for various reasons. We write to share an idea. We write to share our beliefs, our points of view, our passions. We write to share those things with the world, and our greatest desire is for our words to help someone, maybe even change someone's life.
But have we ever stopped to think about how much it has changed us? How much different we are because of our stories? How much God is using our stories in our lives, and how the words we type are actually the words God is speaking to our hearts, and our lives? The words he is using to change our hearts, even before they reach the rest of the world?
It takes my breath away just thinking about it. And it surprises me that in 41/2 years, I have never thought of this before now. One thing I've learned is that some concepts, some ideas are so simple that we miss them entirely. I thank God that He opened my eyes to see this truth, and that He has given me the chance to share them with you.
The coolest thing is, it's only beginning. It's only been 41/2 years, and the book is only half done. I have a whole writing life ahead of me that God is going to use. I have no clue where this book will go, or where any other work that He gives me will go. I have no idea where I'm going.
None of us do. But slowly, surely, along the way, our works are making us into different people, and it's all orchestrated by the One who is making us new.
He changes hearts, and for us, He is using the words we write to shape us into who He wants us to be. He not only gives us stories. He makes them a part of us. He writes them on our hearts.
So I'm asking you to, for just a minute, step back from the keyboard and think about what your story has done for you. Compare the you before writing to the you now, and see just what God has done in your life.
Every story and every writer can be used by Him to change lives.
And all of that brings Him glory.
And that's why we're here.
I'd love to hear your story! Make sure to share in the comments!