Every once and awhile, somewhere between the deadlines and manuscripts and over-crammed schedules, there are moments where we actually stop.
It's rare, but we do. And every so often, when we stop, we might have that one overwhelming thought come over us:
Why am I doing this?
You could have a myriad of reasons: to find your purpose, to help somebody, to get a point across, to glorify God.
Yes, you have your reasons for doing what you're doing, writing what you're writing, devoting yourself to your dreams. And yet that question still remains.
Why am I doing this?
And that's when the time comes to really, really stop, and turn around to look at what we've been doing. Deep down in places we don't talk about at parties (yes, stealing a line here), there is a fire that was kindled a long time ago. It was there before we even knew what to do with ourselves – before we write in the first place.
It was our passion. It was in our souls. It was a driving passion to actually be running the race and fulfilling the drive that was placed in us.
“Let us run with endurance the race
that is set before us.”
Where are we now? What have we accomplished? It might be a blog or a book or an article in a magazine. We may be published, or we may just be starting to write. We might still be pursuing what we think our 'goals' are, or we might have actually arrived at what we thought that 'goal' was.
And we're still asking that question.
Why we're asking the Question
Because we really haven't reached our goal. Yes, we might have set one for ourselves: To gain a blog following, to publish a book, to have a name for ourselves. Or maybe it was to just finish a project or start the blog.
Now that question still stares us in the face, and no matter how much or how little we have accomplished, it's still going to be there.
As long as we live on earth, it's never going to leave.
Because that goal, that inner passion burning inside us will never be satisfied until our job is done, our race is complete, and we're finally where we belong.
We weren't called to a temporary position. We were called to life. And that means that no matter how many things we accomplish, how successful we are in the eyes of the world, our job is never going to be done.
So when we ask why we're doing this, when we wonder why we are not satisfied with our achievements and successes, the answer is this: Because our race is not complete. Because our job is not done. Because God is still going to do things. And because we are not meant for this world.
And until we see Him, we aren't going to be 100% satisfied.
The above verse is from Hebrews chapter 12. But when I was reading it, the following verse caught my eye, and I think it is even more powerful than the first.
It reads : “Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith.”
We're not only the writers of stories; Our story is being written. God is our author, the writer of our books. And the greatest thing is that He is not only that, but He is the finisher of our faith. He establishes us. He strengthens us. He directs us on these paths.
And He satisfies our deepest longings. He finishes us. He completes our souls.
And that's why we're doing this.
“We do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
~ 2 Corinthians 4:18